All Will Be Good

I'm feeling overwhelmed and stressed out. Last weekend, M. was out of commission and he couldn't do anything because he hurt his foot while jogging. I ran around all weekend taking BoyChild to a birthday party and hosted playdates for BoyChild, cleaned the house, washed windows and cleaned up the yard, took GirlChild to her optometrist appointment. I couldn't go and work out all weekend because of the running around and today I missed my workout because M. is still sick and BoyChild was throwing up last night and is home sick today. I do find working out helps relieve stress,but I couldn't go in case M. needed me.

M. has been feeling awful all week, he went to the doctor on Thursday and he's on antibiotics, the doctor thinks he may have a sinus infection. He's reading in bed right now. I'm worried about him. He had episodes of having double vision yesterday. His doctor told him it may be related to his sinus issues and to call him if he has any more episodes. He hasn't had any episodes today but I'm keeping a close eye on him. M. has been coaching the school swim team and the big swim meet is tomorrow morning. We're supposed to be there for 7:30 a.m. so we will have to leave the house by 6:45 a.m. at the latest. I know M. wants to go and feels he has to go but it just worries me that he is doing too much and will make himself sicker, which will only add to the stress that I'm feeling because if all this sickness that's spreading through my family doesn't stop soon I'm going to have a nervous breakdown. Have I mentioned that I don't handle stress very well especially when it involves my children and husband being sick.

We're not quite sure what M. has, so that adds to the worry. BoyChild is feeling a little better this morning, he hasn't thrown up yet, so I'm keeping my fingers crossed that he's okay for the rest of the day.

So we've asked M.'s parents to stay overnight tonight. They can stay home with BoyChild while we attend the swim meet. I did not want M. to be driving, especially until we are sure the double vision is gone.

To add to the stress we are supposed to attend a wedding in North Carolina next week. I'm not feeling too optimistic about it. If M. isn't feeling 100% I want to cancel the trip. But I know M. won't feel the same way. He will want to go, especially since we were the ones who are supposed to be driving down and taking his parents along with us, as they are also attending the wedding. But this will be a 14 hour road trip and with everyone's health being so unpredictable, GirlChild with her ongoing headaches, BoyChild with last night's episode of vomiting and M.'s pounding headaches, sore throat and possible recurring double vision, it just seems foolish to tempt fate.

I'm sorry because I know this post is sounding pretty whiny and "oh, woe is me", but I'm feeling pretty stressed and writing this down is actually helping a little. I know I have to just keep telling myself that everything is going to be all right, but when you're in the middle of it, I find it really hard to think positively. I just have to keep chanting to myself, "all will be good" over and over until I actually believe it.